叶子的离开，| happy birthday lester | Friday, September 26, 2008 3:50 PM |
i miss everyone; everything we used to do. october please! | |
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| batam | Friday, September 19, 2008 3:57 AM |
finally, i'm really really going for a holiday. even though it's only two days and still sixteen days away. i feel like indulging myself in every way possible. just because i've worked too hard. i'm so tired. | |
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| modified | Wednesday, September 10, 2008 12:40 AM |
earlier today, or rather yesterday, i wondered. maybe because i finally have time to breathe. maybe because i talked to people; friends who would listen. what happened to my life? what happened to me? i see everyone being happy with what they have. or at least being unhappy with what they don't have. and i? i'm unhappy with what i have. complicating? confused? that's how i feel. how long more should i deal with what you're giving me? or in fact, what you're not giving me. patience has its limits. i very well know how patient people around has molded me to be. and you're still crossing the line. you know this is bad; it's horrible. it doesn't even matter what i write here... how ambiguous i'm making things sound... or how obvious what i'm trying to get at... because at the end of the day you can surf facebook, friendster, youtube, you name it... but you simply cannot visit blogspot to find out how i feel. so you'll never know how even this little thing really makes me feel. i don't know what is the point of me trying so hard. when all you do is say you care but don't seem like you are because you don't know how to express it. i need your time. but your sleep is more important than my need. if you cannot even be on time for a date you set for us. then i don't think i can keep this going as well. because telling me you really cannot bring yourself to get up does not explain the effort you're willing to put in for an already devastated girl like me. i have one million more things kept inside that i cannot recall at the moment. and i only have one place to release the tension. the one place that you never took the pain to enter. why? is it so hard for you? - side track(not really), poor injured dennis. if you get what i mean. | |
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| last day | Tuesday, September 09, 2008 3:37 PM |
took a break and it's just not enough. 3 days off work and i'm down to the last now. how time flies when you really don't want it to. anyhow, i found my life again. and i really really need to have more time like that. how can i accomplish this need? sigh | |
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| friday again | Friday, September 05, 2008 4:29 PM |
i'm back to square one again and it's about deciding what to do all over again. i hate this and going to work especially on fridays. so here i am on the worst day of the week. how do i get myself out of this shit? | |
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| quit | Thursday, September 04, 2008 3:13 PM |
i so dread going to work. | |
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| sick | Wednesday, September 03, 2008 12:06 AM |
i'm sick. so very sick. ): this is just terrible. what am i doing this for? why should i stick around if i don't see the point? what i really want and need now is a long good break. but nobody's going to allow that to happen. horrible world. | |
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